SUNDAY REHEARSAL..

Ok Sundays rehearsal started what 2-3 hours late but we still managed to run through act once and two, without realli stopping . From this i felt a lot better about the performance. Seeing how it all came together and how everyones character development was paying off was really great. From the rehearsal it was made obvious to me that i would need to produced a running sheet for myself including all entries and exits, from what side (real world or circus) and costume changes. If this was not done i could just see a disaster waiting to happen ( even tho one happened wed. but i shall speak about that lata)

Macey was also giving us our mock mark on the day and after the rehearsal i wasnt feeling so confident it my own performance.. thinking i would most likely get a C. Its the feeling of not thinking i was ever going to get there that was upsetting me and thinking that all the hard work i had put in would be for nothing. I know myself as a performer and the the lion tamer scene is not a scene i can do in the way the script is wanting it done. My pathetic attempted of a 'ggrrrrr' bout ppl 2 tears of laughter well maybe but it was pretty funni actualli pretty sad! lol! Neways Macey made it clear that knowing myself as a performer can sometimes be a good and a bad thing, knowing that i cant pull the roaring off with out laughing, being distracted or lookin like a complete fool is a good thing! But not being able to make the scene wat it should or could be because i kno myself as a performer is a bad thing! Being able to streach yourself and going out of ur comfort zone is something i may need 2 work on although i feel like i have managed 2 do that when dancing in ariel ballet when talkin about wanting 2 be air!

wk 5- almost there

struggeling with my monologe at the end of the play.. i am realli struggeling BIT TIME! I dont feel it, and if i dont feel it how is ne one else meant 2?!?! Felt crap about how my rehearsals have been going as of late. Must give a mention 2 josh as he realli helped me one day when i like i was at breaking point.. listening to the music and sayin my lines as he prompted me, realli realli helped. Made the mood of the monologe really clear to me but that also sucked as i knew i was no where near where i wanted 2 be.

Other than that i still need 2 get my lines down and feel completely confident with them as i keep stuffing it up, but ill get there nothing a visit 2 nans learning lines 4 an hour or 2 wont fix.

ANOREXIC DAY- was friday and i hadnt eaten for the whole day. Skool had finished and i still wasnt fellin hungry and it was like wat the hell.. im always hungry at skool!!! But yes then bec suggested that i should go buy a freddo to tempt me. That absoulutely killed me and i kept threatening kyle, leonie, bec and macey 2 eat it!I proclaimed that i had already experience the hunger i needed 2. Once opening the freddo i found smelling it constintley realli help put the cravings at ease. I learnt many things even tho at about 6o'clock my threats became a reality, I found MY freddo leonie had hidden! And after leavin drama i enjoyed a twister combo from KFC.. yummo :)

well thats it 4 week 5 i think.. bit late in posting but better late than never hey??

...GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS...

today was my first lunch time rehearsal with macey..

it went quite well but now i am seeing the difficult side of my character! the straight part in which i was warned about very early on! In order to get a good mark i must show my diversity and not always play the victim throughout the play..

even tho i think the GIRL is a victim when it comes to the VOICE..
she is constantly depressed because of the things the voice says in her head.

In scenes like AERIAL BALLET, the diary entry i must show my true self.. the freedom speech, through this i must show the almost obsessive side of the girl..
I LOVE MY HIP BONES AND I LOVE MY NECK BONES.
In her diary she acknowledges the fact that she is thin and that SHE is making herself this way!This can become quite confusing 2 portray, as it is thought anorexic ppl see themselves as FAT when the look in the mirror BUT this scene is suggesting they don't! In fact it is suggesting that it is a choice the sufferers are aware of.
The girl is choosing 2 have the control by NOT 2 eating.. :s ahhh help lol!

MOVEMENT..
i love the fact Maddy does ballet and can teach me dances so i don't look like a complete retard out there. The 2 scenes which have the most physical movement for my character all incorporate the voice as well! I saw that maddy's blog gave me a bit of praising, so i just thought i best say how i feel workin with you :) yes thats rite happy1 I can see u put in the effort as well and when it comes 2 wat some would say as 'corny' scenes u realli help me 2 focus on what we need 2 get across 2 the audience.Helping me 2 stay true 2 the directors intent, so yea thank you maddy.
Just a qucik note everyone is doing so well, i have faith in this play so dont doubt urself! keep up the good work coz u are all SHINING STARS no matter who u are lalalalala.. ahhh i betta go home before i go crazy ;p

AND IM OUT! XXOO

WK 3 in detail.. just 2 make myself feel betta, maybe even a lil shelfish... NOT (thankyou borat)

SORRY GUYS JUST GOING BACK 2 WK 3 QUICKLY

WEDNESDAY

Maddy and i stayed back on wednesday night, i think it was a while now lol! Well we continued to work on the dinner scene which is very physical and full of movement, all the movement is choregraphed step by step and the voice acts as a puppeteer leading the girl to the TOLET(yes thats rite, tolet! exactly how i say it!) I cant wait till our performance but im getting a bit stressed as to whether ill be ready. Cant wait to perform that particular scene infront of an audience as its so powerful in the way the voice lures the girl without even touching her.

THURSDAY

Stayed back on thursday aswell. Firstly holly, bec (as the voice) and I ran through first check-up workin out characters intentions behind the words, which was really good and left me feeling confident about a scene i twas a tad iffy on! I also helped out macey with the tent set up.. i came up with the idea 4 the PINS.. who thought i could be that smart lol!So that left me feeling better not leavin miss mace with a hard job 2 do by herself, i also only found out that nite bout some bitchy blog comments but i think that time has gone and past now.. kinda glad i was slack and hadnt checked ppl's blogs otherwise im sure it could have a lots worst then needed.

Aritey.. 2 miss mace mainly hehe... I dont comment ppl 4 reason

1. sometimes i cant be bothered

2. i dont want ppl 2 find it annoying that i suggest things as they may take it the wrong way, like in class sometimes.. who here hasnt had a fight with someone on MSN becasue of the fact they read something the completely wrong way..

so NO im NOT selfish (gggrrrrrrrrr >: plus evil eyes or mono-brow) if i wanna say something i will just come talk 2 u peoples, as i find it a more affective way 2 get my point or comment across OK... OK! :)

FRIDAY

I was absent... and coming in on Monday and seeing the tickets Victoria had done and the posters Luke had done, was a reality check.. like HELLO JENNA we're on in less than 2 weeks! But just wanna say its all lookin realli good and i heard from leonals the ideas 4 front of house and I'm sure everyone else is very busy helping others like ally etc.

WK 3

Ok so haven't written in a while, but you kno how it is...

So far our class is behind by a full week. This is a lil worrying but i have no doubt we will get there as long as we put in the effort! Hopefully we can help macey to start ticking of her list of 2 do things by ppl staying back and helping setting up performance space etc. NOTE may not b able 2 stay 4 long as i am going 2 Corn 4 the wkd and leavin Friday nite!

I am slowly but surely crossing off my own check list, and researching further into my character. Im finding my time management a bit hard and even though we are only meant 2 see drama as a normal subject worth only 3 hours of our time it seems to take much much much more of my time up.. not sure whether its just coz i feel 2 properly do my job in the production i feel as though i need 2 spend so much time on it OR just coz i want 2 be an actor OR just because i actually enjoy the subject, well the prac side of things lol!

Concerns i have is our Thursday nite rehearsals which either 1. ppl don't put the rite amount of effort in or 2. ppl want 2 do wat they think is best, not wat macey has told us 2 do!
So this Thursday afta 2 Thursday not of not rehearsing as much as possible i hope we can stay on track and get scenes we have gone ova polished, so they look like they could be performed!

well i would write more but im a lil busy bee and must go start setting up catering stuff cooking today ahhhh!!!! cya all in lesson 4 & 5
much love the UNSHELFISH jenna :) xoxo

HOLIDAY WORKSHOP- tuesday 24th of April

In week 3 of the skook holidays on Tuesday from about 9 till 3 or 4 i don't memba... I dragged my bottom 2 skool 4 a workshop to help character building and get us organised/prepared for our year 12 production of MIRROR MIRROR in week six! Things i need to do: Follow directors intent- Girls pressures/influences, including: absent father vain mother- bad role model not right build for ballet. makes me sad start of disorder magazines/pop-culture size 0= beauty BARBIE celebrities, models etc. shallow,surface, outside beauty=IMPORTANT, inside beauty=NOT IMPORTANT RESEARCH ANOREXIA understand the disease find stories about anorexic girls ANSWER 'what is it be anorexic?'... this will help me get into the mind-set PHYSICALISATION find photos of girls who are anorexic observe human behaviour, in order to re-create (watch skinny girls @ supre, ones who try on 3xs which = a size 0, & see how they react when they look in the mirror, are they happy, do they like wat they see?) appealing 4 my character= sky, air work out how 2 show this part of me through costume find material that represents my character for the circus tent MAKE BELIEVABLE AND REAL choose ppl or certain situations to enable a real performance.. DAD- MUM- FRIEND- BROTHER- VOICE- i already have one 4 the voice :'( & one 4 the dad 2. show difference in girl as she grows up.. 4, 12, 16 costume/make-up/hair voice attitude physicalisation WORK OUT RELATIONSHIPS 2 OTHA CHARACTERS use the script- what does it tell me about the GIRL, use this 2 build my character no name- represent a 'GIRL'... all girls?? use lines in the play to work out relationships and what others think of me use Kane's 'WORKING ACTIONS' WRING- strong, sustained flexible GIRL= nervous, worried about being caught out,fidgety want 2 FLOAT- light, sustained, flexible. MY QUEST 2 BE THIN AS AIR.... this will help with stage presence plus work through and tick off actors checklist stick 2 criteria, making sure its met 2 a high standard and.... LEARN MY LINES!!! :0

thoughts about 'the girl'

My personal thoughts after getting GIRL in MIRROR MIRROR. First thought is that its going to be hard, which Miss Mace has made quite clear. Before we were told our roles, we (me, Holly, Adele, Maddy, Knowlsey and Kyle) were told that we were playing 'straight' characters. These roles can be considered hard as there is no room for portraying a stereo-typical type, for example i represent all Girls not just one. This can make it harder to receive a good mark! Meaning the effort, time and research of the character needs to be put in, if an A is my goal.. which i don't see why it shouldn't be. I am really happy with my role and glad i have the opportunity and challenge of playing the girl. Getting into the mind set of my character is going to be a difficult task but i have many ideas of how i can experience some feelings the girl goes through.. My first idea is being ANNOREXIC for a day! After visiting the pro-anorexia sites i found many girls asking for advice and talking about fasting.. so for one day i am going to do the same eating plan and exercises as one particular girl on the site. So i can experience some of the things they go through.. even tho I'm not lookin forward 2 it, but come on now I've done the 40 hour famine, but that was 4 money, but this is 4 a good mark so I RECKON I CAN AND WILL DO IT! AN ENTRY I FOUND ABOUT A GIRL EXPERIENCE DIFFERENT TYPES OF HUNGER... i've been thinking about the different types of hunger--like how there's 'snackish' hunger that is just an annoyance and easily dealt with, and then you go into 'real' hunger--like i havent had a meal in 12 hours and how sometimes it hurts your stomach and sometimes it hurts your head too....and how sometimes that is the hardest hunger to get past....but then theres 'starving'--i havent eaten in DAYS and how somehow it perpetuates itself. once you go so long with that hunger, you never want it to go away, no matter how much it hurts. and you get panicky about anything that you MIGHT eat because that would ruin your hunger....and then there is that weird hunger when you havent eaten in a week or more and it doesnt really hurt your stomach you just keep thinking 'i HAVE to eat. i HAVE to eat' and you start thinking a million miles a minute about whats in the pantry and what would be safe and should you binge and would you purge and where would you purge and my god i just HAVE to eat SOMETHING right NOW.