Ah dear me...
wat can i say..
hmmmm everyone else went realli well!
But me.. not so well!
I dont kno wat 2 blame it on.. the fact i was 2 lazy 2 move my running sheet 2 the other wall or nerves, but lets just say it was NOT my best performance out!
Lets start by running ova my strengths and weaknesses
starting with the weak points as they are easy 2 remember..
Ok firstly i skipped not 1, not 2, not 3, BUT FOUR FCUKING(yes fcuking its not a swear word) scenes...apparently the audience didn't notice thank god !But the cast, crew and ME half way through the scene noticed. Now the reason it happened was bc i was looking on Maddy's running sheet and read the wrong one by accident... walking out on stage (no offence bec) but walkin out on stage ready 4 'aerial ballet' scene all i was thinking was fantastic no diary(2 do my diary scene with), great wrong bloody set.. !needless 2 say I'm skipping 4 god damn scenes ahead.. something didn't feel quite right as i was thinking 'like if bec has made this bigger mistake' but oh no we must listen 2 the running sheet (stupid me )
June 15th... so on n so forth i kept going cutting off Kyle who was about 2 walk on stage, i could see the panic going on.. the worried faces from Shane in the lighting box and not 2 mention Maddy from on stage, whispers from the backstage, Macey frantically flicking through the script lookin at me like 'oh Jesus Christ'.. but wat could i do like they say 'THE SHOW MUST GO ON" As it turned 2 a blackout Maddy and i were stranded on stage not knowing wat 2 do with a final attempted of moving the set myself 2 finish the scene i walked (stormed) off stage not knowing wat 2 with myself AND WANTING TO CRAWL UP IN A CAVE AND DIE!
And yes i am glad 2 say the show did go on and a big, huge thank you 2 Maddy, thank you so so so much 4 not letting me have a break down, and calming down ready 4 the next scene. Thank you Bec and Luke 4 working out wat 2 do when the scene next came around and last but definitely not least thank you everyone 4 not getting angry at me!
That incident shook me up quite a bit and my performance i felt did suffer.. for example such phrases i managed 2 come up with in my monologue in 'Best friend' scene were far from the intended mood i wanted 2 create.
SOME OF SUCH WERE-
SHIT down
they SAYS
and another one was loosing it when Leonie said CHOCOLATE ( i wasn't use 2 or expecting the reaction we got from the audience.)
well cant be bothered talkin bout the good parts from wed. as I'm sure i had some but ill talk bout the good parts of Thurs. in my next post as i went much betta on moderation nite..
THANK GOD
ok bubye xxoo
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Wk 6- Tuesday pre-run thingo
SORRY IF I REPEAT MYSELF BUT THE STUPID POOTA WANT LET ME SEE WAT MY LAST POST WAS ABOUT!!!!
The run through on Sunday in wk 5 came together quite well and showed all of our hard work paying off. Macey was also marking us.. giving us a mock mark 2 indicate the standard we were at.From our mock marks on Sunday i received a B and was fairly pleased with my results and could see much room for improvement in my performance in hope of recieveing an A :)
The comments from Miss Mace telling me wat i needed 2 work on were realli helpful and i never would have ever got there if it wasn't 4 u. Just have 2 say thanx 4 believing in me to take on such a role and helping me develop my character to allow the audience 2 simplify with the Girl.
Neways back 2 Tuesday of week six we had our first run through with an ACTUAL audience... which was intended for yr 10 health students from north, south, blakeview and gawler river. To our disappointment not one of the campuses showed to preview our production. Instead we ended up having about 2 classes (if that) of year 11's and 12's. After performing and talking to friends of mine who were able to see a couple scenes at the start of act 1 they said that they really enjoyed it and we all were really good. With everyone sharing the feedback they had received (from teachers and friends) i felt my confidence being boosted as ppl realli enjoyed the play and its story line. ... This was a surprise 2 me when they said this as no one showed realli ne interest in the play they were watching.
From Tuesday i was rushing through a lot of my costume changes and some of this was fixed with added in scene by Luke... 1 of the comments from Macey was the hair changes needed 2 be more drastic as i looked older than the other girls on satge, also my hair had to not be so 'Jenna' like.. wat eva that means!
so even tho the costume changes went fine(even tho it was a bit of a rush) on Tuesday i then realised the stress of hair, having correct props and wat not would be going on 2 THE MAX on Wednesday... and i may need a lil help.
Also my hat goes of 2 ppl such as Adele n Kiah who i constantly saw rushing around changing costumes for different scenes, one after the next... realli don't kno how u do it so well done!
Alrite post about dreaded WEDNESDAY performance soon
luv jenna xxoo
The run through on Sunday in wk 5 came together quite well and showed all of our hard work paying off. Macey was also marking us.. giving us a mock mark 2 indicate the standard we were at.From our mock marks on Sunday i received a B and was fairly pleased with my results and could see much room for improvement in my performance in hope of recieveing an A :)
The comments from Miss Mace telling me wat i needed 2 work on were realli helpful and i never would have ever got there if it wasn't 4 u. Just have 2 say thanx 4 believing in me to take on such a role and helping me develop my character to allow the audience 2 simplify with the Girl.
Neways back 2 Tuesday of week six we had our first run through with an ACTUAL audience... which was intended for yr 10 health students from north, south, blakeview and gawler river. To our disappointment not one of the campuses showed to preview our production. Instead we ended up having about 2 classes (if that) of year 11's and 12's. After performing and talking to friends of mine who were able to see a couple scenes at the start of act 1 they said that they really enjoyed it and we all were really good. With everyone sharing the feedback they had received (from teachers and friends) i felt my confidence being boosted as ppl realli enjoyed the play and its story line. ... This was a surprise 2 me when they said this as no one showed realli ne interest in the play they were watching.
From Tuesday i was rushing through a lot of my costume changes and some of this was fixed with added in scene by Luke... 1 of the comments from Macey was the hair changes needed 2 be more drastic as i looked older than the other girls on satge, also my hair had to not be so 'Jenna' like.. wat eva that means!
so even tho the costume changes went fine(even tho it was a bit of a rush) on Tuesday i then realised the stress of hair, having correct props and wat not would be going on 2 THE MAX on Wednesday... and i may need a lil help.
Also my hat goes of 2 ppl such as Adele n Kiah who i constantly saw rushing around changing costumes for different scenes, one after the next... realli don't kno how u do it so well done!
Alrite post about dreaded WEDNESDAY performance soon
luv jenna xxoo
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
SUNDAY REHEARSAL..
Ok Sundays rehearsal started what 2-3 hours late but we still managed to run through act once and two, without realli stopping . From this i felt a lot better about the performance. Seeing how it all came together and how everyones character development was paying off was really great. From the rehearsal it was made obvious to me that i would need to produced a running sheet for myself including all entries and exits, from what side (real world or circus) and costume changes. If this was not done i could just see a disaster waiting to happen ( even tho one happened wed. but i shall speak about that lata)
Macey was also giving us our mock mark on the day and after the rehearsal i wasnt feeling so confident it my own performance.. thinking i would most likely get a C. Its the feeling of not thinking i was ever going to get there that was upsetting me and thinking that all the hard work i had put in would be for nothing. I know myself as a performer and the the lion tamer scene is not a scene i can do in the way the script is wanting it done. My pathetic attempted of a 'ggrrrrr' bout ppl 2 tears of laughter well maybe but it was pretty funni actualli pretty sad! lol! Neways Macey made it clear that knowing myself as a performer can sometimes be a good and a bad thing, knowing that i cant pull the roaring off with out laughing, being distracted or lookin like a complete fool is a good thing! But not being able to make the scene wat it should or could be because i kno myself as a performer is a bad thing! Being able to streach yourself and going out of ur comfort zone is something i may need 2 work on although i feel like i have managed 2 do that when dancing in ariel ballet when talkin about wanting 2 be air!
Macey was also giving us our mock mark on the day and after the rehearsal i wasnt feeling so confident it my own performance.. thinking i would most likely get a C. Its the feeling of not thinking i was ever going to get there that was upsetting me and thinking that all the hard work i had put in would be for nothing. I know myself as a performer and the the lion tamer scene is not a scene i can do in the way the script is wanting it done. My pathetic attempted of a 'ggrrrrr' bout ppl 2 tears of laughter well maybe but it was pretty funni actualli pretty sad! lol! Neways Macey made it clear that knowing myself as a performer can sometimes be a good and a bad thing, knowing that i cant pull the roaring off with out laughing, being distracted or lookin like a complete fool is a good thing! But not being able to make the scene wat it should or could be because i kno myself as a performer is a bad thing! Being able to streach yourself and going out of ur comfort zone is something i may need 2 work on although i feel like i have managed 2 do that when dancing in ariel ballet when talkin about wanting 2 be air!
wk 5- almost there
struggeling with my monologe at the end of the play.. i am realli struggeling BIT TIME! I dont feel it, and if i dont feel it how is ne one else meant 2?!?! Felt crap about how my rehearsals have been going as of late. Must give a mention 2 josh as he realli helped me one day when i like i was at breaking point.. listening to the music and sayin my lines as he prompted me, realli realli helped. Made the mood of the monologe really clear to me but that also sucked as i knew i was no where near where i wanted 2 be.
Other than that i still need 2 get my lines down and feel completely confident with them as i keep stuffing it up, but ill get there nothing a visit 2 nans learning lines 4 an hour or 2 wont fix.
ANOREXIC DAY- was friday and i hadnt eaten for the whole day. Skool had finished and i still wasnt fellin hungry and it was like wat the hell.. im always hungry at skool!!! But yes then bec suggested that i should go buy a freddo to tempt me. That absoulutely killed me and i kept threatening kyle, leonie, bec and macey 2 eat it!I proclaimed that i had already experience the hunger i needed 2. Once opening the freddo i found smelling it constintley realli help put the cravings at ease. I learnt many things even tho at about 6o'clock my threats became a reality, I found MY freddo leonie had hidden! And after leavin drama i enjoyed a twister combo from KFC.. yummo :)
well thats it 4 week 5 i think.. bit late in posting but better late than never hey??
Other than that i still need 2 get my lines down and feel completely confident with them as i keep stuffing it up, but ill get there nothing a visit 2 nans learning lines 4 an hour or 2 wont fix.
ANOREXIC DAY- was friday and i hadnt eaten for the whole day. Skool had finished and i still wasnt fellin hungry and it was like wat the hell.. im always hungry at skool!!! But yes then bec suggested that i should go buy a freddo to tempt me. That absoulutely killed me and i kept threatening kyle, leonie, bec and macey 2 eat it!I proclaimed that i had already experience the hunger i needed 2. Once opening the freddo i found smelling it constintley realli help put the cravings at ease. I learnt many things even tho at about 6o'clock my threats became a reality, I found MY freddo leonie had hidden! And after leavin drama i enjoyed a twister combo from KFC.. yummo :)
well thats it 4 week 5 i think.. bit late in posting but better late than never hey??
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
...GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS...
today was my first lunch time rehearsal with macey..
it went quite well but now i am seeing the difficult side of my character! the straight part in which i was warned about very early on! In order to get a good mark i must show my diversity and not always play the victim throughout the play..
even tho i think the GIRL is a victim when it comes to the VOICE..
she is constantly depressed because of the things the voice says in her head.
In scenes like AERIAL BALLET, the diary entry i must show my true self.. the freedom speech, through this i must show the almost obsessive side of the girl..
I LOVE MY HIP BONES AND I LOVE MY NECK BONES.
In her diary she acknowledges the fact that she is thin and that SHE is making herself this way!This can become quite confusing 2 portray, as it is thought anorexic ppl see themselves as FAT when the look in the mirror BUT this scene is suggesting they don't! In fact it is suggesting that it is a choice the sufferers are aware of.
The girl is choosing 2 have the control by NOT 2 eating.. :s ahhh help lol!
MOVEMENT..
i love the fact Maddy does ballet and can teach me dances so i don't look like a complete retard out there. The 2 scenes which have the most physical movement for my character all incorporate the voice as well! I saw that maddy's blog gave me a bit of praising, so i just thought i best say how i feel workin with you :) yes thats rite happy1 I can see u put in the effort as well and when it comes 2 wat some would say as 'corny' scenes u realli help me 2 focus on what we need 2 get across 2 the audience.Helping me 2 stay true 2 the directors intent, so yea thank you maddy.
Just a qucik note everyone is doing so well, i have faith in this play so dont doubt urself! keep up the good work coz u are all SHINING STARS no matter who u are lalalalala.. ahhh i betta go home before i go crazy ;p
AND IM OUT! XXOO
it went quite well but now i am seeing the difficult side of my character! the straight part in which i was warned about very early on! In order to get a good mark i must show my diversity and not always play the victim throughout the play..
even tho i think the GIRL is a victim when it comes to the VOICE..
she is constantly depressed because of the things the voice says in her head.
In scenes like AERIAL BALLET, the diary entry i must show my true self.. the freedom speech, through this i must show the almost obsessive side of the girl..
I LOVE MY HIP BONES AND I LOVE MY NECK BONES.
In her diary she acknowledges the fact that she is thin and that SHE is making herself this way!This can become quite confusing 2 portray, as it is thought anorexic ppl see themselves as FAT when the look in the mirror BUT this scene is suggesting they don't! In fact it is suggesting that it is a choice the sufferers are aware of.
The girl is choosing 2 have the control by NOT 2 eating.. :s ahhh help lol!
MOVEMENT..
i love the fact Maddy does ballet and can teach me dances so i don't look like a complete retard out there. The 2 scenes which have the most physical movement for my character all incorporate the voice as well! I saw that maddy's blog gave me a bit of praising, so i just thought i best say how i feel workin with you :) yes thats rite happy1 I can see u put in the effort as well and when it comes 2 wat some would say as 'corny' scenes u realli help me 2 focus on what we need 2 get across 2 the audience.Helping me 2 stay true 2 the directors intent, so yea thank you maddy.
Just a qucik note everyone is doing so well, i have faith in this play so dont doubt urself! keep up the good work coz u are all SHINING STARS no matter who u are lalalalala.. ahhh i betta go home before i go crazy ;p
AND IM OUT! XXOO
WK 3 in detail.. just 2 make myself feel betta, maybe even a lil shelfish... NOT (thankyou borat)
SORRY GUYS JUST GOING BACK 2 WK 3 QUICKLY
WEDNESDAY
Maddy and i stayed back on wednesday night, i think it was a while now lol! Well we continued to work on the dinner scene which is very physical and full of movement, all the movement is choregraphed step by step and the voice acts as a puppeteer leading the girl to the TOLET(yes thats rite, tolet! exactly how i say it!) I cant wait till our performance but im getting a bit stressed as to whether ill be ready. Cant wait to perform that particular scene infront of an audience as its so powerful in the way the voice lures the girl without even touching her.
THURSDAY
Stayed back on thursday aswell. Firstly holly, bec (as the voice) and I ran through first check-up workin out characters intentions behind the words, which was really good and left me feeling confident about a scene i twas a tad iffy on! I also helped out macey with the tent set up.. i came up with the idea 4 the PINS.. who thought i could be that smart lol!So that left me feeling better not leavin miss mace with a hard job 2 do by herself, i also only found out that nite bout some bitchy blog comments but i think that time has gone and past now.. kinda glad i was slack and hadnt checked ppl's blogs otherwise im sure it could have a lots worst then needed.
Aritey.. 2 miss mace mainly hehe... I dont comment ppl 4 reason
1. sometimes i cant be bothered
2. i dont want ppl 2 find it annoying that i suggest things as they may take it the wrong way, like in class sometimes.. who here hasnt had a fight with someone on MSN becasue of the fact they read something the completely wrong way..
so NO im NOT selfish (gggrrrrrrrrr >: plus evil eyes or mono-brow) if i wanna say something i will just come talk 2 u peoples, as i find it a more affective way 2 get my point or comment across OK... OK! :)
FRIDAY
I was absent... and coming in on Monday and seeing the tickets Victoria had done and the posters Luke had done, was a reality check.. like HELLO JENNA we're on in less than 2 weeks! But just wanna say its all lookin realli good and i heard from leonals the ideas 4 front of house and I'm sure everyone else is very busy helping others like ally etc.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
WK 3
Ok so haven't written in a while, but you kno how it is...
So far our class is behind by a full week. This is a lil worrying but i have no doubt we will get there as long as we put in the effort! Hopefully we can help macey to start ticking of her list of 2 do things by ppl staying back and helping setting up performance space etc. NOTE may not b able 2 stay 4 long as i am going 2 Corn 4 the wkd and leavin Friday nite!
I am slowly but surely crossing off my own check list, and researching further into my character. Im finding my time management a bit hard and even though we are only meant 2 see drama as a normal subject worth only 3 hours of our time it seems to take much much much more of my time up.. not sure whether its just coz i feel 2 properly do my job in the production i feel as though i need 2 spend so much time on it OR just coz i want 2 be an actor OR just because i actually enjoy the subject, well the prac side of things lol!
Concerns i have is our Thursday nite rehearsals which either 1. ppl don't put the rite amount of effort in or 2. ppl want 2 do wat they think is best, not wat macey has told us 2 do!
So this Thursday afta 2 Thursday not of not rehearsing as much as possible i hope we can stay on track and get scenes we have gone ova polished, so they look like they could be performed!
well i would write more but im a lil busy bee and must go start setting up catering stuff cooking today ahhhh!!!! cya all in lesson 4 & 5
much love the UNSHELFISH jenna :) xoxo
So far our class is behind by a full week. This is a lil worrying but i have no doubt we will get there as long as we put in the effort! Hopefully we can help macey to start ticking of her list of 2 do things by ppl staying back and helping setting up performance space etc. NOTE may not b able 2 stay 4 long as i am going 2 Corn 4 the wkd and leavin Friday nite!
I am slowly but surely crossing off my own check list, and researching further into my character. Im finding my time management a bit hard and even though we are only meant 2 see drama as a normal subject worth only 3 hours of our time it seems to take much much much more of my time up.. not sure whether its just coz i feel 2 properly do my job in the production i feel as though i need 2 spend so much time on it OR just coz i want 2 be an actor OR just because i actually enjoy the subject, well the prac side of things lol!
Concerns i have is our Thursday nite rehearsals which either 1. ppl don't put the rite amount of effort in or 2. ppl want 2 do wat they think is best, not wat macey has told us 2 do!
So this Thursday afta 2 Thursday not of not rehearsing as much as possible i hope we can stay on track and get scenes we have gone ova polished, so they look like they could be performed!
well i would write more but im a lil busy bee and must go start setting up catering stuff cooking today ahhhh!!!! cya all in lesson 4 & 5
much love the UNSHELFISH jenna :) xoxo
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