...Wednesday Performance... our first performance!

Ah dear me...
wat can i say..
hmmmm everyone else went realli well!
But me.. not so well!

I dont kno wat 2 blame it on.. the fact i was 2 lazy 2 move my running sheet 2 the other wall or nerves, but lets just say it was NOT my best performance out!

Lets start by running ova my strengths and weaknesses
starting with the weak points as they are easy 2 remember..

Ok firstly i skipped not 1, not 2, not 3, BUT FOUR FCUKING(yes fcuking its not a swear word) scenes...apparently the audience didn't notice thank god !But the cast, crew and ME half way through the scene noticed. Now the reason it happened was bc i was looking on Maddy's running sheet and read the wrong one by accident... walking out on stage (no offence bec) but walkin out on stage ready 4 'aerial ballet' scene all i was thinking was fantastic no diary(2 do my diary scene with), great wrong bloody set.. !needless 2 say I'm skipping 4 god damn scenes ahead.. something didn't feel quite right as i was thinking 'like if bec has made this bigger mistake' but oh no we must listen 2 the running sheet (stupid me )

June 15th... so on n so forth i kept going cutting off Kyle who was about 2 walk on stage, i could see the panic going on.. the worried faces from Shane in the lighting box and not 2 mention Maddy from on stage, whispers from the backstage, Macey frantically flicking through the script lookin at me like 'oh Jesus Christ'.. but wat could i do like they say 'THE SHOW MUST GO ON" As it turned 2 a blackout Maddy and i were stranded on stage not knowing wat 2 do with a final attempted of moving the set myself 2 finish the scene i walked (stormed) off stage not knowing wat 2 with myself AND WANTING TO CRAWL UP IN A CAVE AND DIE!

And yes i am glad 2 say the show did go on and a big, huge thank you 2 Maddy, thank you so so so much 4 not letting me have a break down, and calming down ready 4 the next scene. Thank you Bec and Luke 4 working out wat 2 do when the scene next came around and last but definitely not least thank you everyone 4 not getting angry at me!

That incident shook me up quite a bit and my performance i felt did suffer.. for example such phrases i managed 2 come up with in my monologue in 'Best friend' scene were far from the intended mood i wanted 2 create.

SOME OF SUCH WERE-
SHIT down
they SAYS
and another one was loosing it when Leonie said CHOCOLATE ( i wasn't use 2 or expecting the reaction we got from the audience.)

well cant be bothered talkin bout the good parts from wed. as I'm sure i had some but ill talk bout the good parts of Thurs. in my next post as i went much betta on moderation nite..
THANK GOD
ok bubye xxoo