Tuesday, June 12, 2007

...Wednesday Performance... our first performance!

Ah dear me...
wat can i say..
hmmmm everyone else went realli well!
But me.. not so well!

I dont kno wat 2 blame it on.. the fact i was 2 lazy 2 move my running sheet 2 the other wall or nerves, but lets just say it was NOT my best performance out!

Lets start by running ova my strengths and weaknesses
starting with the weak points as they are easy 2 remember..

Ok firstly i skipped not 1, not 2, not 3, BUT FOUR FCUKING(yes fcuking its not a swear word) scenes...apparently the audience didn't notice thank god !But the cast, crew and ME half way through the scene noticed. Now the reason it happened was bc i was looking on Maddy's running sheet and read the wrong one by accident... walking out on stage (no offence bec) but walkin out on stage ready 4 'aerial ballet' scene all i was thinking was fantastic no diary(2 do my diary scene with), great wrong bloody set.. !needless 2 say I'm skipping 4 god damn scenes ahead.. something didn't feel quite right as i was thinking 'like if bec has made this bigger mistake' but oh no we must listen 2 the running sheet (stupid me )

June 15th... so on n so forth i kept going cutting off Kyle who was about 2 walk on stage, i could see the panic going on.. the worried faces from Shane in the lighting box and not 2 mention Maddy from on stage, whispers from the backstage, Macey frantically flicking through the script lookin at me like 'oh Jesus Christ'.. but wat could i do like they say 'THE SHOW MUST GO ON" As it turned 2 a blackout Maddy and i were stranded on stage not knowing wat 2 do with a final attempted of moving the set myself 2 finish the scene i walked (stormed) off stage not knowing wat 2 with myself AND WANTING TO CRAWL UP IN A CAVE AND DIE!

And yes i am glad 2 say the show did go on and a big, huge thank you 2 Maddy, thank you so so so much 4 not letting me have a break down, and calming down ready 4 the next scene. Thank you Bec and Luke 4 working out wat 2 do when the scene next came around and last but definitely not least thank you everyone 4 not getting angry at me!

That incident shook me up quite a bit and my performance i felt did suffer.. for example such phrases i managed 2 come up with in my monologue in 'Best friend' scene were far from the intended mood i wanted 2 create.

SOME OF SUCH WERE-
SHIT down
they SAYS
and another one was loosing it when Leonie said CHOCOLATE ( i wasn't use 2 or expecting the reaction we got from the audience.)

well cant be bothered talkin bout the good parts from wed. as I'm sure i had some but ill talk bout the good parts of Thurs. in my next post as i went much betta on moderation nite..
THANK GOD
ok bubye xxoo

Wk 6- Tuesday pre-run thingo

SORRY IF I REPEAT MYSELF BUT THE STUPID POOTA WANT LET ME SEE WAT MY LAST POST WAS ABOUT!!!!

The run through on Sunday in wk 5 came together quite well and showed all of our hard work paying off. Macey was also marking us.. giving us a mock mark 2 indicate the standard we were at.From our mock marks on Sunday i received a B and was fairly pleased with my results and could see much room for improvement in my performance in hope of recieveing an A :)

The comments from Miss Mace telling me wat i needed 2 work on were realli helpful and i never would have ever got there if it wasn't 4 u. Just have 2 say thanx 4 believing in me to take on such a role and helping me develop my character to allow the audience 2 simplify with the Girl.

Neways back 2 Tuesday of week six we had our first run through with an ACTUAL audience... which was intended for yr 10 health students from north, south, blakeview and gawler river. To our disappointment not one of the campuses showed to preview our production. Instead we ended up having about 2 classes (if that) of year 11's and 12's. After performing and talking to friends of mine who were able to see a couple scenes at the start of act 1 they said that they really enjoyed it and we all were really good. With everyone sharing the feedback they had received (from teachers and friends) i felt my confidence being boosted as ppl realli enjoyed the play and its story line. ... This was a surprise 2 me when they said this as no one showed realli ne interest in the play they were watching.

From Tuesday i was rushing through a lot of my costume changes and some of this was fixed with added in scene by Luke... 1 of the comments from Macey was the hair changes needed 2 be more drastic as i looked older than the other girls on satge, also my hair had to not be so 'Jenna' like.. wat eva that means!
so even tho the costume changes went fine(even tho it was a bit of a rush) on Tuesday i then realised the stress of hair, having correct props and wat not would be going on 2 THE MAX on Wednesday... and i may need a lil help.

Also my hat goes of 2 ppl such as Adele n Kiah who i constantly saw rushing around changing costumes for different scenes, one after the next... realli don't kno how u do it so well done!

Alrite post about dreaded WEDNESDAY performance soon
luv jenna xxoo

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

SUNDAY REHEARSAL..

Ok Sundays rehearsal started what 2-3 hours late but we still managed to run through act once and two, without realli stopping . From this i felt a lot better about the performance. Seeing how it all came together and how everyones character development was paying off was really great. From the rehearsal it was made obvious to me that i would need to produced a running sheet for myself including all entries and exits, from what side (real world or circus) and costume changes. If this was not done i could just see a disaster waiting to happen ( even tho one happened wed. but i shall speak about that lata)

Macey was also giving us our mock mark on the day and after the rehearsal i wasnt feeling so confident it my own performance.. thinking i would most likely get a C. Its the feeling of not thinking i was ever going to get there that was upsetting me and thinking that all the hard work i had put in would be for nothing. I know myself as a performer and the the lion tamer scene is not a scene i can do in the way the script is wanting it done. My pathetic attempted of a 'ggrrrrr' bout ppl 2 tears of laughter well maybe but it was pretty funni actualli pretty sad! lol! Neways Macey made it clear that knowing myself as a performer can sometimes be a good and a bad thing, knowing that i cant pull the roaring off with out laughing, being distracted or lookin like a complete fool is a good thing! But not being able to make the scene wat it should or could be because i kno myself as a performer is a bad thing! Being able to streach yourself and going out of ur comfort zone is something i may need 2 work on although i feel like i have managed 2 do that when dancing in ariel ballet when talkin about wanting 2 be air!

wk 5- almost there

struggeling with my monologe at the end of the play.. i am realli struggeling BIT TIME! I dont feel it, and if i dont feel it how is ne one else meant 2?!?! Felt crap about how my rehearsals have been going as of late. Must give a mention 2 josh as he realli helped me one day when i like i was at breaking point.. listening to the music and sayin my lines as he prompted me, realli realli helped. Made the mood of the monologe really clear to me but that also sucked as i knew i was no where near where i wanted 2 be.

Other than that i still need 2 get my lines down and feel completely confident with them as i keep stuffing it up, but ill get there nothing a visit 2 nans learning lines 4 an hour or 2 wont fix.

ANOREXIC DAY- was friday and i hadnt eaten for the whole day. Skool had finished and i still wasnt fellin hungry and it was like wat the hell.. im always hungry at skool!!! But yes then bec suggested that i should go buy a freddo to tempt me. That absoulutely killed me and i kept threatening kyle, leonie, bec and macey 2 eat it!I proclaimed that i had already experience the hunger i needed 2. Once opening the freddo i found smelling it constintley realli help put the cravings at ease. I learnt many things even tho at about 6o'clock my threats became a reality, I found MY freddo leonie had hidden! And after leavin drama i enjoyed a twister combo from KFC.. yummo :)

well thats it 4 week 5 i think.. bit late in posting but better late than never hey??

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

...GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS...

today was my first lunch time rehearsal with macey..

it went quite well but now i am seeing the difficult side of my character! the straight part in which i was warned about very early on! In order to get a good mark i must show my diversity and not always play the victim throughout the play..

even tho i think the GIRL is a victim when it comes to the VOICE..
she is constantly depressed because of the things the voice says in her head.

In scenes like AERIAL BALLET, the diary entry i must show my true self.. the freedom speech, through this i must show the almost obsessive side of the girl..
I LOVE MY HIP BONES AND I LOVE MY NECK BONES.
In her diary she acknowledges the fact that she is thin and that SHE is making herself this way!This can become quite confusing 2 portray, as it is thought anorexic ppl see themselves as FAT when the look in the mirror BUT this scene is suggesting they don't! In fact it is suggesting that it is a choice the sufferers are aware of.
The girl is choosing 2 have the control by NOT 2 eating.. :s ahhh help lol!

MOVEMENT..
i love the fact Maddy does ballet and can teach me dances so i don't look like a complete retard out there. The 2 scenes which have the most physical movement for my character all incorporate the voice as well! I saw that maddy's blog gave me a bit of praising, so i just thought i best say how i feel workin with you :) yes thats rite happy1 I can see u put in the effort as well and when it comes 2 wat some would say as 'corny' scenes u realli help me 2 focus on what we need 2 get across 2 the audience.Helping me 2 stay true 2 the directors intent, so yea thank you maddy.
Just a qucik note everyone is doing so well, i have faith in this play so dont doubt urself! keep up the good work coz u are all SHINING STARS no matter who u are lalalalala.. ahhh i betta go home before i go crazy ;p

AND IM OUT! XXOO

WK 3 in detail.. just 2 make myself feel betta, maybe even a lil shelfish... NOT (thankyou borat)

SORRY GUYS JUST GOING BACK 2 WK 3 QUICKLY
WEDNESDAY
Maddy and i stayed back on wednesday night, i think it was a while now lol! Well we continued to work on the dinner scene which is very physical and full of movement, all the movement is choregraphed step by step and the voice acts as a puppeteer leading the girl to the TOLET(yes thats rite, tolet! exactly how i say it!) I cant wait till our performance but im getting a bit stressed as to whether ill be ready. Cant wait to perform that particular scene infront of an audience as its so powerful in the way the voice lures the girl without even touching her.
THURSDAY
Stayed back on thursday aswell. Firstly holly, bec (as the voice) and I ran through first check-up workin out characters intentions behind the words, which was really good and left me feeling confident about a scene i twas a tad iffy on! I also helped out macey with the tent set up.. i came up with the idea 4 the PINS.. who thought i could be that smart lol!So that left me feeling better not leavin miss mace with a hard job 2 do by herself, i also only found out that nite bout some bitchy blog comments but i think that time has gone and past now.. kinda glad i was slack and hadnt checked ppl's blogs otherwise im sure it could have a lots worst then needed.
Aritey.. 2 miss mace mainly hehe... I dont comment ppl 4 reason
1. sometimes i cant be bothered
2. i dont want ppl 2 find it annoying that i suggest things as they may take it the wrong way, like in class sometimes.. who here hasnt had a fight with someone on MSN becasue of the fact they read something the completely wrong way..
so NO im NOT selfish (gggrrrrrrrrr >: plus evil eyes or mono-brow) if i wanna say something i will just come talk 2 u peoples, as i find it a more affective way 2 get my point or comment across OK... OK! :)
FRIDAY
I was absent... and coming in on Monday and seeing the tickets Victoria had done and the posters Luke had done, was a reality check.. like HELLO JENNA we're on in less than 2 weeks! But just wanna say its all lookin realli good and i heard from leonals the ideas 4 front of house and I'm sure everyone else is very busy helping others like ally etc.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

WK 3

Ok so haven't written in a while, but you kno how it is...

So far our class is behind by a full week. This is a lil worrying but i have no doubt we will get there as long as we put in the effort! Hopefully we can help macey to start ticking of her list of 2 do things by ppl staying back and helping setting up performance space etc. NOTE may not b able 2 stay 4 long as i am going 2 Corn 4 the wkd and leavin Friday nite!

I am slowly but surely crossing off my own check list, and researching further into my character. Im finding my time management a bit hard and even though we are only meant 2 see drama as a normal subject worth only 3 hours of our time it seems to take much much much more of my time up.. not sure whether its just coz i feel 2 properly do my job in the production i feel as though i need 2 spend so much time on it OR just coz i want 2 be an actor OR just because i actually enjoy the subject, well the prac side of things lol!

Concerns i have is our Thursday nite rehearsals which either 1. ppl don't put the rite amount of effort in or 2. ppl want 2 do wat they think is best, not wat macey has told us 2 do!
So this Thursday afta 2 Thursday not of not rehearsing as much as possible i hope we can stay on track and get scenes we have gone ova polished, so they look like they could be performed!

well i would write more but im a lil busy bee and must go start setting up catering stuff cooking today ahhhh!!!! cya all in lesson 4 & 5
much love the UNSHELFISH jenna :) xoxo

Sunday, April 29, 2007

HOLIDAY WORKSHOP- tuesday 24th of April

In week 3 of the skook holidays on Tuesday from about 9 till 3 or 4 i don't memba... I dragged my bottom 2 skool 4 a workshop to help character building and get us organised/prepared for our year 12 production of MIRROR MIRROR in week six!

Things i need to do:

Follow directors intent- Girls pressures/influences, including:
absent father
vain mother- bad role model
not right build for ballet. makes me sad start of disorder
magazines/pop-culture
size 0= beauty
BARBIE
celebrities, models etc. shallow,surface, outside beauty=IMPORTANT, inside beauty=NOT IMPORTANT


RESEARCH ANOREXIA
understand the disease
find stories about anorexic girls
ANSWER 'what is it be anorexic?'... this will help me get into the mind-set

PHYSICALISATION
find photos of girls who are anorexic
observe human behaviour, in order to re-create (watch skinny girls @ supre, ones who try on 3xs which = a size 0, & see how they react when they look in the mirror, are they happy, do they like wat they see?)
appealing 4 my character= sky, air
work out how 2 show this part of me through costume
find material that represents my character for the circus tent

MAKE BELIEVABLE AND REAL
choose ppl or certain situations
to enable a real performance..
DAD-
MUM-
FRIEND-
BROTHER-
VOICE-
i already have one 4 the voice :'(
& one 4 the dad 2.

show difference in girl as she grows up.. 4, 12, 16
costume/make-up/hair
voice
attitude
physicalisation

WORK OUT RELATIONSHIPS 2 OTHA CHARACTERS
use the script- what does it tell me about the GIRL, use this 2 build my character
no name- represent a 'GIRL'... all girls??
use lines in the play to work out relationships and what others think of me

use Kane's 'WORKING ACTIONS'
WRING- strong, sustained flexible
GIRL= nervous, worried about being caught out,fidgety
want 2 FLOAT- light, sustained, flexible.
MY QUEST 2 BE THIN AS AIR....
this will help with stage presence

plus work through and tick off actors checklist
stick 2 criteria, making sure its met 2 a high standard and....
LEARN MY LINES!!! :0

Saturday, April 28, 2007

thoughts about 'the girl'

My personal thoughts after getting GIRL in MIRROR MIRROR.
First thought is that its going to be hard, which Miss Mace has made quite clear. Before we were told our roles, we (me, Holly, Adele, Maddy, Knowlsey and Kyle) were told that we were playing 'straight' characters. These roles can be considered hard as there is no room for portraying a stereo-typical type, for example i represent all Girls not just one. This can make it harder to receive a good mark! Meaning the effort, time and research of the character needs to be put in, if an A is my goal.. which i don't see why it shouldn't be.

I am really happy with my role and glad i have the opportunity and challenge of playing the girl. Getting into the mind set of my character is going to be a difficult task but i have many ideas of how i can experience some feelings the girl goes through..

My first idea is being ANNOREXIC for a day!

After visiting the pro-anorexia sites i found many girls asking for advice and talking about fasting.. so for one day i am going to do the same eating plan and exercises as one particular girl on the site. So i can experience some of the things they go through.. even tho I'm not lookin forward 2 it, but come on now I've done the 40 hour famine, but that was 4 money, but this is 4 a good mark so I RECKON I CAN AND WILL DO IT!

AN ENTRY I FOUND ABOUT A GIRL EXPERIENCE DIFFERENT TYPES OF HUNGER...

i've been thinking about the different types of hunger--like how there's 'snackish' hunger that is just an annoyance and easily dealt with, and then you go into 'real' hunger--like i havent had a meal in 12 hours and how sometimes it hurts your stomach and sometimes it hurts your head too....and how sometimes that is the hardest hunger to get past....but then theres 'starving'--i havent eaten in DAYS and how somehow it perpetuates itself. once you go so long with that hunger, you never want it to go away, no matter how much it hurts. and you get panicky about anything that you MIGHT eat because that would ruin your hunger....and then there is that weird hunger when you havent eaten in a week or more and it doesnt really hurt your stomach you just keep thinking 'i HAVE to eat. i HAVE to eat' and you start thinking a million miles a minute about whats in the pantry and what would be safe and should you binge and would you purge and where would you purge and my god i just HAVE to eat SOMETHING right NOW.




Tuesday, March 20, 2007

team building activites :)

last lesson was a fairly emotional lesson for me i was a bit fired up for unrelated reasons 2 drama but after the break i was ready to join in the 'fun' of the knot game.. it didnt work out but was alrite considering the annoyingness (if thats a word) of the gfame! We then played the ball game and got (gut haha phobe) upto 25, which was a plus and we finished that game on a more postive note. The next game was the 'manner' game and was quite fun just allowing the class to all have a good time and a bit of a laugh HEHE HORNY ;)

Miss Mace brought to the classes attention, even though some were not aware of the so called bitchness happening, roll of the eyes at a person etc. I think it's just that fact not everyone is made to get along! But i must admit after the team building activities i felt more comfortable with most people and there wasnt a big gap between us or groups of people. Even the musical has helped with making our drama class more of a team..... But then again lol! i believe the that some people are trying to be all... look at me i am the best.. and are always competing and always wanting to be known as the VERY best!

JUST MY QUICK BITCH.. SERIOUSLY I NEED 2 GET IT OUT!!!!!! this person outside of drama unrelated activities is fine, and when they are not competing but, i just think not only this person who frustrates me at times but all of us including me need not focus on who gets what role because, at the end of the day the moderator is not marking you on your role they are marking you on your acting ability...

ok now back to mirror mirror.. we were ask to think about characters we would like and after seeing some scenes performed during class i really think i would like to play the girl or the voice of the girl. Reasons being i think these two characters could be done really well and i could see myself portraying these characters the best out of all the characters so far. After Kia and Kyle did the clowns acting out the story being told by the mum i can see the potential mirror mirror has not only to touch base on big issues affecting our youth but also be a light hearted comedy in places 2!

well since ive been at skool since 8:30pm (not that im complaining much haha, ah miss mace i kno ur prob still there i feel 4 u!) i think i might head off 2 bed

goodnite all dont let the bed bugs bite xoxo

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

yesterdays lesson...

Yesterdays lesson was very good in terms of our class working better as a group and becoming more comfortable with each other. After discussing possible plays for our group production we started doing improv games like 'park bench' and the 'bus.' These games would act as the audition for the part we will receive in the group production. There are no actual auditions for parts as Ms Mace is choosing them for us. I don't mind as Ms Mace will be choosing characters we will excel in and do our very best, but at the same time will challenge us, and enable us to show our acting abilities.

I did think about doing a backstage part in our group production, like maybe publicity but have decided i would enjoy acting more and think i will get more out of the course by doing it. Therefore by doing something i enjoy i will recieve a higher mark, HOPEFULLY! \

Also our lesson yesterday was so much fun and full of comedy i think we should start taping lesson and put together a DVD for the end of the year showing our journey in year 12 Drama Studies.

Love me xoxo

Already almost halfway through term 1!

Oh deary me! Time seems to have been going so very quickly and now that i have finally managed to get on to my blog account i can actually comment on a few things which have been happening in drama. Our class has had three options to choose from for our group production; Cloudstreet (which would appeal to the audience but we would find hard to write about and receive a good mark), Rhinoceros (which wouldn't appeal to the audience leaving many confused and asking the question 'WHAT THE!?!' but would be good to write about as there's lots of information about adsurb theatre therefore resulting in a good mark) and Mirror Mirror (which i believe would appeal to the audience as it addresses an important issue and also would allow us to write a good piece as information is easy to find about eating disorders, this is also my personal favourite.)





MIRROR MIRROR-explores the inner life of a girl with an eating disorder and the impact this has on those around her. This thought-provoking play tackles a sensitive issue in a theatrically dynamic way. It invites audiences into the topsy-turvy world of a circus where everything is smoke and mirrors and nothing is as it seems. The play is full of strong visual images and powerful dialogue, as well as moments of comedy.



It incorporates a wide range of performance, dance and music styles – from clowning to soliloquies, from ballet to belly dancing and from pop to tribal drumming.

REASONS FOR LIKING THIS PLAY-It involves many aspects of theatre and will allow us to connect to the characters as the issues confronted throughout the play are ones which many of us experiences everyday. From how we portray ourselves and how others portray us! We constantly worry how we are seen.. AM I too ugly, AM I too thin, AM I too fat, AM I too short etc.
This issue may not just effect us it can also effect ones family members or partner. It really comes down to the fact that we will all have to deal with this issue at some stage in our life, if we already haven't.
When i was younger, my mum stop eating for a period of time due to many different reasons. As i was not old enough to understand what was wrong with her or even to notice the fact that she wasn't eating, this didn't really effect me at the time. Today i look back at photos of my mum and see how incredible skinny she was. It made me feel sick looking at the photos. She look very very unhealthy like she should have been in hospital, she had pale skin and her face was all bony, she looked like a skeleton wrapped in a thin layer of skin!

I believe this is an ideal play for us as 'mature' young adults to perform and confront our audiences with the issue of anorxeia norvosa in a way which allows you to truly see the side of the person suffering from the disease.

My goal if we do 'Mirror Mirror' is to have the audience leave with a confident outlook on there body image and see their reflection for what it really is, so not one of them end up looking like this!




Thankyou for reading.. love jenna xoxo





Monday, February 5, 2007

week one down and a hell of a lot more 2 go!

Made it through the first week of school and survived.. woohoo! Drama seems like it will be a lot of fun but at the same time it will be a lot of hard work especially if i want to reach my goal of getting an A at the end of the year. This means putting effort into all my work and really trying my very best.

Our year 12 drama class has variety of different people who may not know each other very well. There are many obvious groups within the class. There is a bigger wall to break down when doing group activities with new people whom we wouldn't normally work with. I hope that as a group of young adults we are able to break through these barriers. The reason i want this is, as Miss Mace said we are not competing against one another! If we set someone else up to fail we will in return fail ourselves. As a bad performance from one person, lets not only them down but also everyone else down aswell.

Intro 2 the drama blogs for the all important year 12!

Hello there everyone in year 12 drama, my name is jenna and this is my drama blog! Throughout the course of the year i will be continuously updating my blog with everything from; pictures, personal thoughts, work load, struggles, and general feelings about the class as a whole and our drama group for the year.

Make sure you keep on checking out my space as we are up for a hard and interesting year, and i assure you this will be a very interesting space at times so keep me posted with feelings you have and want to share with me!

Thank you and catchya lata alligators
love jenna bo benna banana bo benza je je je je jenna!
xoxo